I've a mixture of feelings now, I dont know who and what should I turn to.

Writting in my diary make me felt worst so I decided to type it here.
Actually they are small little things but when you accumulate them together, it's equal to a big thing or maybe perhaps to me now only. I dont know why am I so emotional now or maybe because I'm tired. I'm really tired, mentally tired or maybe physcially tired as well. I have no more than 7hours of sleep almost everyday recently. Maybe that's why I have a slightly mood-swing now, I dont know is it got to do with mood swing. But well, I just wanna type down whatever I'm feeling now and whatever's on my head now. At least this would make me feel better, much better.

Frustrated,
Tired,
Sick,
Upset,
Crap,
F-up,

&what's more?
No time.
My busy upcoming schedules are making me crazy,
Oh, anyway I'm going for an confirmation for a freelance event on X'mas on this coming Wednesday, congrats me.
Thanks babylove, really very much.

Secondly, I'm actually the type of person who will get upset over small little things easily, I appear to be a stronghead but nope, I'm fragile. Just that at times, I dont tend to express them out directly. Because I know when I choose to ignore all of the craps, I know I can get to overcome them easily and quickly. Why not? I dont wanna have more upset memories staining on my teen life either.
The reason is simple &clear, because Im not good at expressing things out neither do I express them well too. That's why I choose to keep it all to myself and now they are making me feel stuffed up, like crazy.
Damn.

But whatever it is, I have to stay strong and mind-clear, I always say to myself.
Yes, here I am presenting you the inside Stella whom I even felt so strangerous either,