Sorry, this would be a wordy post. I didnt want to, either. This is the only source which I can vent all of my frustrations &unhappiness over here. Although they are small things, but perhaps only here.

1)Yesterday my family &I went to my gramp's house to have dinner with other aunties too. I just wanna have a good dinner over there, ended up my aunties + my grandmother gave me alot of comments about my school uniform, my falsies and my hairstyle. Usually, I went there with my decent home clothes and without any make up too. So yeah, this time I have no time to wash up and change, so I went there with my school uniform on. So all of them were commenting about me. They were like "why your school skirt so short?", "Why you tie your hair until like that? Just a normal ponytail will do, same things, my attire and my make up. Woah. I immediately broke down into tears and I couldnt control myself by showing my disrespect to them by raising my voice at them "I just wanna have a good dinner over here, I wanted to go home to change but no time for me. If I know it would turn out to be like this, I wouldnt come." All of them kept quiet afterwards. And my grandmother was like somehow apologising to me and trying to make me smile. You know my grandmother is really nice. Like each time when me and my brother go over visit her, she would give each of us 10bucks to buy sweets. Yeah, 10bucks is like too much for buying sweets huh, she just wanna give us extra allowances for us to keep. And the funny part is, she always do this secretly without letting my parents knowing. Yes, I love my grandmother very much, but I just can't stand my aunties demoralising me. Sorry, i couldnt control.

2)Ohyeah, I have a brother who is younger than me by 1year old. &He's currently studying his Olevel now. And, he thinks that Im a disgrace to him because he studys in a top good class and he's also every year top three students in his secondary school. Of cause the classmates he interacted with, are good at studies too. There's one time he told me that not a single one of his classmates or friends siblings got into ITE, only me. It hurts me, is studying in ITE that disgraceful ? I am not in a very good term with him lately too. I just find that I cannot really communicate with him. We can even have a small argument over small matters.

3)As I've mentioned in the blog before, I become my class representative. But today I just resigned because I dont think Im even fit being a class rep. I'm always late in class lessons, talkative and sometimes a beauty nap in class kills. I cannot even meet a normal students" expectations, moreover a role model in class. There's no time for me to change to better too, teacher does not give me time at all. I don't think I'm ready for this class leader position, I still have rooms for improvement.

Tomorrow is a better day, I always tell myself this.